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Hello, been a while since I completely updated here.
I was preparing for this journal because what I'm about to say is very
personal and I feel I need to make it known to those who follow me.
But first, the non-important stuff:
The last few weeks, I've been to two conventions in LA.
COMIKAZE EXPO
Comikaze was pretty fun for them being their inaugural year. I'm
surprised they were able to convert a parking lot in the LA Convention
Center to the whole Comikaze event since the upstairs was mainly used
for Anime Expo. The con was fun and I had a blast hanging with my only
friend there: and her friends.
Here are some pics:
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PACIFIC MEDIA EXPO 2011
PMX was fun too. I would have preferred Pasadena like 2010, but the
hotel was a lot bigger and nicer so I guess this is ok. I was there all
three days working as staff for the con, checking badges, running around
advertising concerts and food trucks and enjoying the cosplay.
It was
really great seeing friends there too even if I was workin'. The work
too was very fun and I enjoyed it. PMX was great. I don't know if I'll
attend Anime LA, probably not, but next year maybe. :3
Pictures:
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I WON'T be attending any cons in the near future, given my current
situation except for small gatherings around LA like the Anime Expo
meets or BroniesLA meetups.
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My Personal life
Alright this brings me to the meat of what I wanted to talk about. These
last few months have been downright aggravating, stressful, and
annoying for me. What's been going on in my personal life has affected
me in my art and activity online now.
What's been happening with me was that me and my family moved to our new
house over a year ago and things were fine, however another member of
our family wanted to be a bitch about the house and through months of
legal bullcrap and courts, our house was ruled to be sold, so now we
have to move AGAIN! And it's very soon too.
In short, I will eventually have to disappear and begin the moving transition AGAIN!
Unfortunately, it's not easy this time around because we have to find a new house ASAP.
-
Stress
Ooooh but it doesn't end there.
The pain, stress and anguish this stupid bitch has caused me and my
family really fucked me over. Also along with this, most know that I've
been searching and trying to find a job.
The pressure starts hitting me hard of trying to get a job so I can help out my family in the moving
process, but nothing ever comes up. I turn into a total worry-fuck and then GET HOSPITALIZED because of it.
I finally calm down and try not to
worry as I've been doing but it doesn't change the fact that I need
work. I'm alright now though for the most part, but keep reading.
-
Art
While all this was going on, the stress started hitting me in my art. When I was drawing, my current situation didn't make it any better. The moment of doing pictures feeling like I've improved because I was going over tutorials and learning new things, but after a good number of critiques, I've come to the conclusion that I've learned nothing at all. Which drew me to this.
I frankly HATE my art.
Seriously as I look at each picture it starts looking all the same to me. Alot of this coming anatomically-wise with the characters I notice all the same things done in each picture and for some reason I can't figure out why I keep making the same mistakes. Every picture so far keeps reminding me what I keep doing wrong and frankly I'm just disgusted with all the character art I've been doing and I HATE it. My art right now fucking disgusts and annoys the shit out of me. Not only that but I refuse to call what I'm doing right now my own style because I don't want it to look like this.
I KNOW I'm better than this, and I KNOW I'm capable of doing a LOT better. I've had over 17 years experience drawing EVERYTHING and yet I'm in a rut and can't figure out what's been my problem working out these anatomical mistakes......
THEN I FIGURED IT OUT:-
This tutorial blew me away and it started coming together:
My problem was more of the fact that I keep THINKING too much when drawing. Overthinking was caused by the left side of the brain, when artists draw with their RIGHT side of the brain. I've been doing my best trying not to over-think things cause that totally kills the drawing 'mojo' if you will.
And I believe It's helped me twofold:
I know it's not a fluke because I know I can draw from these examples EASILY and why I'm not able to illustrate them digitally has been a huge problem. All of these were NOT traced and I drew them all on a whim and subconsciously.
Referencing this image:
I drew it normally:
Then trying not to think, I followed the tutorial mentioned above and got this after flipping t over and covering part of it:
And for lulz:
But anyways, over the years I'd submit to this gallery and do fanart nonstop without thinking. Quantity, but now after going through all this I feel like my art now has no substance to it, so I'm reaching out and trying to do whatever I can to feel confident again and make art that I'd be proud of.
Another helpful tutorial was this:
Trying to figure out what the hell kind of style I have. Haven't found or developed a style to my liking which is why I've come to this announcement:
-
I feel no confidence or happiness drawing as I am now and I see no reason to carry on any projects until I go back to basics and work on a LOT of things in terms of drawing.
I AM PUTTING ALL OF MY PROJECTS ON A LONG TERM HIATUS AND FOCUS SOLELY ON DRAWING FOR ME.
The following will be put aside on hiatus:
- HIGH SCHOOL HAVOC WEBCOMIC (SERIES WILL BE PUT ON HIATUS AFTER COMIC 46)
- GOLDEN SUN GENERATIONS: AFTERMATH THE FOUR SEALS WEBCOMIC
- GOLDEN SUN GENERATIONS: COLOSSO REVENGE GAMES WEBCOMIC
I also want to better market myself for these, but to be honest as much as I love all the feedback from the few readers I do have for these three comics and I love you all, I have to put these on the side for a year if not longer because of the way I draw now. I feel I can get away with this now instead of later, since the reader base for these comics are so few and small, and I apologize.
I really want to continue these stories and the webcomic fire in me to tell them still burns strong but I want to sharpen my own skills first before jumping in again on webcomics and not learning anything at all.
FOR THOSE WONDERING, NO MY GALLERY WILL CONTINUE WITH MY LITTLE PONY ART AND COMICS.
Doing MLP art and nothing serious has actually been a personal pleasure for me because my humor and entertaining everyone has really made me happy these past few months. Exactly like how I wanted to do comics for the Xenosaga fandom my early years here on DA. I felt the same making everyone laugh with my demented humor, and I feel that way now with My Little Pony, friendship is magic.
But I must remind people that eventually I'll need to leave for moving to a new house so internet will be a problem. I will be cut off from everyone here very soon, but until that moment comes, I want to continue doing MLP art. I want to publicly let people know that I'm putting aside my comic projects until I feel more confident in my abilities as an artist.
-
For those who want some practice. I STRONGLY recommend going here and doing this every day:
www.posemaniacs.com/thirtyseco…
This is what I'll be working on, my own figure drawing and pose and it's VERY helpful. I've already started doing this.
Oh and check out these tutorials from:
artistshospital.deviantart.com…
I'll end this here and say thanks for all the support. I wanted to get all this out before I need to disappear for awhile. I don't know when I'll come back, but I personally need the time off to collect my thoughts and get back to focus solely on improving as an artist as well as remove the stresses' off my life and get a job.
- /
I was preparing for this journal because what I'm about to say is very
personal and I feel I need to make it known to those who follow me.
But first, the non-important stuff:
The last few weeks, I've been to two conventions in LA.
COMIKAZE EXPO
Comikaze was pretty fun for them being their inaugural year. I'm
surprised they were able to convert a parking lot in the LA Convention
Center to the whole Comikaze event since the upstairs was mainly used
for Anime Expo. The con was fun and I had a blast hanging with my only
friend there: and her friends.
Here are some pics:
<da:thumb id="267870942"/> <da:thumb id="267867116"/> <da:thumb id="267865433"/> <da:thumb id="267857107"/> <da:thumb id="267843765"/> <da:thumb id="267847024"/>
-
PACIFIC MEDIA EXPO 2011
PMX was fun too. I would have preferred Pasadena like 2010, but the
hotel was a lot bigger and nicer so I guess this is ok. I was there all
three days working as staff for the con, checking badges, running around
advertising concerts and food trucks and enjoying the cosplay.
It was
really great seeing friends there too even if I was workin'. The work
too was very fun and I enjoyed it. PMX was great. I don't know if I'll
attend Anime LA, probably not, but next year maybe. :3
Pictures:
<da:thumb id="269086104"/> <da:thumb id="269088966"/> <da:thumb id="269118041"/> <da:thumb id="269119914"/> <da:thumb id="269126074"/> <da:thumb id="269085597"/>
I WON'T be attending any cons in the near future, given my current
situation except for small gatherings around LA like the Anime Expo
meets or BroniesLA meetups.
-
My Personal life
Alright this brings me to the meat of what I wanted to talk about. These
last few months have been downright aggravating, stressful, and
annoying for me. What's been going on in my personal life has affected
me in my art and activity online now.
What's been happening with me was that me and my family moved to our new
house over a year ago and things were fine, however another member of
our family wanted to be a bitch about the house and through months of
legal bullcrap and courts, our house was ruled to be sold, so now we
have to move AGAIN! And it's very soon too.
In short, I will eventually have to disappear and begin the moving transition AGAIN!
Unfortunately, it's not easy this time around because we have to find a new house ASAP.
-
Stress
Ooooh but it doesn't end there.
The pain, stress and anguish this stupid bitch has caused me and my
family really fucked me over. Also along with this, most know that I've
been searching and trying to find a job.
The pressure starts hitting me hard of trying to get a job so I can help out my family in the moving
process, but nothing ever comes up. I turn into a total worry-fuck and then GET HOSPITALIZED because of it.
I finally calm down and try not to
worry as I've been doing but it doesn't change the fact that I need
work. I'm alright now though for the most part, but keep reading.
-
Art
While all this was going on, the stress started hitting me in my art. When I was drawing, my current situation didn't make it any better. The moment of doing pictures feeling like I've improved because I was going over tutorials and learning new things, but after a good number of critiques, I've come to the conclusion that I've learned nothing at all. Which drew me to this.
I frankly HATE my art.
Seriously as I look at each picture it starts looking all the same to me. Alot of this coming anatomically-wise with the characters I notice all the same things done in each picture and for some reason I can't figure out why I keep making the same mistakes. Every picture so far keeps reminding me what I keep doing wrong and frankly I'm just disgusted with all the character art I've been doing and I HATE it. My art right now fucking disgusts and annoys the shit out of me. Not only that but I refuse to call what I'm doing right now my own style because I don't want it to look like this.
I KNOW I'm better than this, and I KNOW I'm capable of doing a LOT better. I've had over 17 years experience drawing EVERYTHING and yet I'm in a rut and can't figure out what's been my problem working out these anatomical mistakes......
THEN I FIGURED IT OUT:-
This tutorial blew me away and it started coming together:
My problem was more of the fact that I keep THINKING too much when drawing. Overthinking was caused by the left side of the brain, when artists draw with their RIGHT side of the brain. I've been doing my best trying not to over-think things cause that totally kills the drawing 'mojo' if you will.
And I believe It's helped me twofold:
I know it's not a fluke because I know I can draw from these examples EASILY and why I'm not able to illustrate them digitally has been a huge problem. All of these were NOT traced and I drew them all on a whim and subconsciously.
Referencing this image:
I drew it normally:
Then trying not to think, I followed the tutorial mentioned above and got this after flipping t over and covering part of it:
And for lulz:
But anyways, over the years I'd submit to this gallery and do fanart nonstop without thinking. Quantity, but now after going through all this I feel like my art now has no substance to it, so I'm reaching out and trying to do whatever I can to feel confident again and make art that I'd be proud of.
Another helpful tutorial was this:
Trying to figure out what the hell kind of style I have. Haven't found or developed a style to my liking which is why I've come to this announcement:
-
I feel no confidence or happiness drawing as I am now and I see no reason to carry on any projects until I go back to basics and work on a LOT of things in terms of drawing.
I AM PUTTING ALL OF MY PROJECTS ON A LONG TERM HIATUS AND FOCUS SOLELY ON DRAWING FOR ME.
The following will be put aside on hiatus:
- HIGH SCHOOL HAVOC WEBCOMIC (SERIES WILL BE PUT ON HIATUS AFTER COMIC 46)
- GOLDEN SUN GENERATIONS: AFTERMATH THE FOUR SEALS WEBCOMIC
- GOLDEN SUN GENERATIONS: COLOSSO REVENGE GAMES WEBCOMIC
I also want to better market myself for these, but to be honest as much as I love all the feedback from the few readers I do have for these three comics and I love you all, I have to put these on the side for a year if not longer because of the way I draw now. I feel I can get away with this now instead of later, since the reader base for these comics are so few and small, and I apologize.
I really want to continue these stories and the webcomic fire in me to tell them still burns strong but I want to sharpen my own skills first before jumping in again on webcomics and not learning anything at all.
FOR THOSE WONDERING, NO MY GALLERY WILL CONTINUE WITH MY LITTLE PONY ART AND COMICS.
Doing MLP art and nothing serious has actually been a personal pleasure for me because my humor and entertaining everyone has really made me happy these past few months. Exactly like how I wanted to do comics for the Xenosaga fandom my early years here on DA. I felt the same making everyone laugh with my demented humor, and I feel that way now with My Little Pony, friendship is magic.
But I must remind people that eventually I'll need to leave for moving to a new house so internet will be a problem. I will be cut off from everyone here very soon, but until that moment comes, I want to continue doing MLP art. I want to publicly let people know that I'm putting aside my comic projects until I feel more confident in my abilities as an artist.
-
For those who want some practice. I STRONGLY recommend going here and doing this every day:
www.posemaniacs.com/thirtyseco…
This is what I'll be working on, my own figure drawing and pose and it's VERY helpful. I've already started doing this.
Oh and check out these tutorials from:
artistshospital.deviantart.com…
I'll end this here and say thanks for all the support. I wanted to get all this out before I need to disappear for awhile. I don't know when I'll come back, but I personally need the time off to collect my thoughts and get back to focus solely on improving as an artist as well as remove the stresses' off my life and get a job.
- /
Creda Hiatus Incoming (Medical Reasons!)
Hi folks! Thank you are for supporting and reading the comic as we continue with Chapter Four of Creda! It's that infamous "H" word again! And following November 15th's update page, I will be putting the comic on hold update wise! I know I'm announcing this pretty early, but wanna make an announcement now before I forget and I usually DO! >-> Reason being because I will be getting surgery on December 8th! Page 192 is a good stopping point on the 15th because it woulda been awkward to stop updates right in the middle of a scene, this is a nice break! ANYWAYS, I'll be getting surgery done and staying a week in the hospital, a pretty big deal but a surgery I've been looking forward to for a long time and I'm excited but happy! Comic Updates will resume on January 3rd, 7am PST Tuesday! As far as individual art goes, I'm still OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS to get my PC repaired! Send a note if interested! I will NOT be taking commissions on December 1st and on because I need to focus
COMMISSIONS OPEN! (OC's, emotes, MLP, comics, etc)
Hiya! I've reached a point now where I am OPENING up Commissions, so I'm reaching out to all of you wonderful followers! This includes character designs, EMOTES, illustrations, MLP art, MLP COMICS. Turnaround is less than a month. I tend to work pretty fast and communicate very actively. If you are interested, send me a NOTE here, or EMAIL ME I'll be working on 5 at a time. Examples are here: with MINIMUM base rates, i'll adapt prices depending on what the Commission is: Thank you! :)
YA GIRL IS A TWITCH STREAMER!
Hello DeviantArt, its been a minute. I'm sorry for the silence, outside work and projects have been eating up a lot of time and energy but I'm finally hoping to regain a sense of normalcy for myself, therefore I'M STARTING UP A TWITCH CHANNEL! It'll be focused on art (obviously) and gaming. I feel like I should be doing more as an artist and build more community around me therefore I wish to stream me drawing art, showing you all my process and just vibe and hang out. I did test streams in the past but realized that I needed more to do it consistently. I recently upgraded my RAM and bought a capture card so I should have a more stable machine now for streaming. FOLLOW ME HERE: https://www.twitch.tv/ladyaniwitchy What to expect? I'll be streaming some of my favorite RPGs and games on Friday Nights. And play some new games I've been meaning to play for a while. On the art front, the majority of art streams will be comic related. I've been neglecting working on my webcomic CREDA
Commissions OPEN | Digital Illustration and COMICS
Heyo, I'm proud to announce that I'm publicly opening up Commissions again. You can find the Commission info HERE ON MY WEBSITE or here on Deviantart! I have FIVE SPOTS OPEN! As of: 2/22/2021 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. Read the info over there and if you want to work with me, SEND ME A NOTE here on DA or use my CONTACT FORM HERE! ----- A note about commission types not mentioned in the graphic, I WILL be accepting requests for MY LITTLE PONY COMICS again like I've done in the past. I know a lot of you are fans and few have script ideas therefore I'm letting you know that I'm once again available for MLP comic work! Comics will be priced at minimum $60 and up! Contact me and let me know what you want, script idea and I'll give you a solid price range for the full commission!! Content rules still apply on what I will and will not draw. Thanks for your support!!! :3 - Ani
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Hopefully everything turns out okay. I know what it's like moving when you haven't really settled in the current house. I wish you an endless supply of good luck.